Month: November 2016

When God Doesn’t Fix It

Have you ever asked God for something – something good, something within God’s will – and yet the answer was…no? Have you struggled with what to believe and how to feel when God doesn’t fix something broken in your life? If so, I’ve been there too, and am still there. I’ve prayed for years begging God to fix “it”, but it’s not been fixed. At times, I’ve visualized myself crawling up onto the lap of God, feeling His tenderness and nearness, asking Him to fix it – and the answer has still been “no.” At other times, I distanced myself from God, in confusion, asking Him “why?” He won’t fix it when He has the power to do so and I heard nothing in return. I’ve struggled with questioning where God is in the midst of my pain and suffering when I don’t feel His nearness, wondering if He cares and is as good as I thought He was.

This struggle of God “not fixing it” has led me on a journey I never wanted to go on. But as promised in James 1:3-4, “The testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its course so that you may be mature.” If I’m honest with myself, I want the maturity, but I’d rather pass on the pain and whole idea of persevering through it. But I don’t get that choice. I experience the pain and brokenness regardless, and it’s my choice whether or not I mature from it. As one author wrote, “The wilderness is part of the landscape of faith, and every bit as essential as the mountaintop. On the mountaintop we are overwhelmed by God’s presence. In the wilderness we are overwhelmed by his absence. Both places should bring us to our knees; the one, in utter awe; the other, in utter dependence.”

Truths You Can’t Live Without:

The book When God Doesn’t Fix It by Laura Story has been instrumental in helping me make sense of the brokenness in my life, and many words and ideas listed below are taken directly from her book.

  1. I don’t have to understand it, and that does not change the goodness of God.

In fact, He never once promises me that I will understand it. And what makes me think that in my finite mind – where I can barely grasp basic concepts of physics or geometry – I could make sense of even a fraction of the mind of God? I was reminded of this truth the other day when I was driving with my three year-old son and we passed by a church with a large steeple that towered high into the sky. From the back seat, I hear him pipe up, “Momma, will you please pull over and let me jump off of that steeple?” To him, that seemed like a perfectly legitimate request. I, on the other hand, was thinking more about the landing rather than the jumping. As I tried to explain to him that we would not be jumping off the steeple today (or any other day for that matter), he of course followed up with the question, “Why not?” while proceeding to cry and scream the rest of the way home. I tried to explain that gravity was this invisible sticky stuff that holds us to the ground, but it did not appear to help his perspective of the situation. All he knew was that he had a desire – and to him, it was a good desire. From his perspective, I was being mean and restrictive, withholding something “good” from him. However, as his mom, I had a totally different perspective. I want him to experience good things, but I also know it is my responsibility to protect him, even from the things that he doesn’t understand he needs protection from. This concept began to sink in for me as I applied it to my relationship with God. From my perspective, I am asking for something that appears to be good. But God has a totally different perspective, that I must trust is good and protective, without understanding it from my limited perspective.

            2. Asking “WHY” is essential, but it’s important to not get stuck there. We ask why believing the answer will provide us with some kind of deep soul satisfaction, which may never come. God doesn’t promise answers, but He does promise that our broken stories will find their greater purpose in light of His greater story. If I get stuck only asking WHY this happened, I would never see HOW God was working in me. I’ve learned that it’s ok to stay in the WHY as long as necessary, but don’t stay stuck there because it only brings more pain and sorrow. Get to the point of being able to say “I don’t understand why my life looks this way, but I don’t have to understand why.” There is freedom found in not having all the answers, especially the WHY answer. It’s essential to move from asking “Why” to asking “How”:

            How might God use my current trial to glorify Himself?

            How might God use my weakness, infirmity or disability to display His power?

            How might God use my hard circumstance to show me something about Himself?

            How might God use my hard circumstance to show me something about myself?

            How might God use my pain for a purpose?

            How might God make this mess into a message?

            How might God use my current chaos to help me grow in walking by faith, not by sight?

            How might God use my situation to show me that true peace is found only in Him?

            3. When experiencing disappointment with God, it’s essential to ask “Where does the disappointment come from?”  The disappointment seems to imply that there was some sort of promise or commitment that God didn’t follow through on. See if you can identify the promise you are claiming in the Bible.  The betrayal and disappointment you feel is real, but the promises you thought God broke are not real.  Therefore, the disappointment didn’t come from God breaking a promise but from my own false expectations. “Should” is a word of expectation.

God didn’t promise that we wouldn’t have trials, He promised that He would be there when we did experience trials and that He’d never leave. What if there are blessings that God offers that are greater than just a pain-free life?

            4. God uses stories that don’t have a happy ending. How many times have you heard testimonies that begin with a trial, include lots of prayer and then have a miraculous ending? I certainly have, and there have been times when I’ve thought to myself, “I wish my story could end like that, and it’s not worth telling until it does – if it does.” I don’t know about you, but for me there’s something refreshing about hearing someone take the huge risk of being vulnerable and sharing – not that they have struggled – but are struggling with something. It makes me think, “Yea, me too.” It creates a sense of togetherness, like-mindedness and even normalcy in what I’m experiencing. I struggle with believing that I have to have my story all together – and God figured out – before it will have purpose or meaning. I am learning that my brokenness that is not yet healed may never be healed on this side of heaven; however, this promise remains – God has used, is using, and will use all of it for His glory. Sometimes the stories that don’t have a happy ending are the ones that can minister deeply to the soul of the person sitting right next to you. Don’t let one tear be wasted by fearing that God can’t use your story right now, regardless of what the ending may be.

Erin Bland, MSW, LCSW
Erin.Bland@lifecarecc.com
(919) 851-1527

The Dance

Relationships can be hard. Some more than others. With each person we find ourselves moving to a different dance and doing our best to follow the steps, but recognizing we might step on toes or not know the way everytime?  There is grace (hopefully) as we learn and grow together, but sometimes this is not always the case. Sometimes we must leave the dance and realize we gave it our best shot. When we feel hurt too often we choose to end the dance. We can watch the person dance with others from afar or we can cut ties completely. Ending a dance entirely is not a bad thing either. Sometimes “releasing” another individual is the best way to show them we care for them and ourselves.

So how do we handle the more difficult dances? The confusing ones we don’t understand? Often we find these relationships at work or in our extended families…with our neighbors or possibly at our children’s sports team events. These are the relationships we can’t truly avoid and we awkwardly tip toe or stomp around these people each time we see them. We admit we can’t be ourselves around these folks and often times don’t know what to do except hide and grumble or hold our heads up high, pridefully.

In marriage, our dance may be difficult when we go through hard times like when finances are tight. We each try to lead the relationship or control which way to turn. Both partners are left feeling frustrated and stubborn and ultimately hurt that they feel misheard. The dance was so fun at first? What happened?

Difficult dances are not a bad thing. They challenge our character and remind us of our brokenness in this chaotic world. They help us to reflect and take into consideration the things we may need to work on personally. Negative emotions may surface like frustration or anger -which is okay. We are each human. The problem is when we decide to stay in this emotion and give-up. The issue becomes when we never truly reflect on our own self and ask questions like, “Where can I take responsibility in the dance?” or “When did I move and should have waited or not moved at all?” Self-reflection is crucial in relationships and forgiveness should be the goal (and just a reminder, forgiveness does not mean forgetting).

Relationships each move in a different way because we are each different. God made us this way. In Psalm 139:13 it says,

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”

Every single piece of you and I was made intentionally- with love and ownership. God knew you before you were even concieved because He is your Creator. Your greatest love. He is crazy about you. In this love, He also gave you free will. The ability to make choices and honor Him in those decisions. He helps us along the way if we are vulnerable enough to see our need for Him. He also is patient-loving and waits on our return to Him when we don’t let Him in…this pains His heart. Like a shepherd and his sheep (Jn 10:11). Like a loving Father, He protects.

The world is full of unique individuals of all groups and backgrounds and two things remain the same for us all:

-God is our Creator

-God loves us all

As we enter into our dances with one another, some intimate and some more surface-like, we find ourselves looking to a God who is perfect and who authored THE dance. The original dance with the best leader. The dance that reminds us of our need for Him. The dance which reveals His goodness, hope and heart for His children. It’s fun and inviting, warm and safe.

The more we dance with our Creator, the better we dance with others…and the better we dance with others, the better this world will be. 

“Let Israel be glad in his Maker; Let the sons of Zion rejoice in their King. Let them praise His name with dancing; Let them sing praises to Him with timbrel and lyre. For the Lord takes pleasure in His people; He will beautify the afflicted ones with salvation.…”

-Psalm 149: 2-4

 

Ashley Wright, MA, LPC-A

Ashley.Wright@lifecarecc.com

1601 Jones Franklin Road
Suite 104
Raleigh, NC 27606

Faith and Wellness

At LifeCare Counseling and Coaching, professional therapy and faith intersect comfortably. Indeed, Christ heals all sorrows. The Grace of God is undeniable and incontrovertible. Yet, sometimes people are overcome by the afflictions of the world. In those times, there’s no shame in turning to community for support. The sad news is that some may feel embarrassed and/or ashamed and choose to suffer a growing illness in silence. In those cases, it may be essential for Christians to seek counseling from a professional counselor outside of their church. The priority, of course, is to encourage healing and ensure excellent care.

LifeCare Counseling and Coaching is comprised of fully licensed, Christ-centered counselors. Professional family and marriage counselors and psychologists help clients set goals and connect spiritual growth with life. We also have a psychiatrist here for those situations where the brain’s chemistry needs a nudge in order to find the right balance. All of us have additional and complementary education as Christian counselors. Some of us even have additional degrees in theology.

We adhere and are held accountable to the rigorous standards imposed on licensed practices, we are able to accept insurance, and we are certified Christian counselors. What’s more, we work tirelessly to honor your church’s traditions, and we work are happy to team with your pastor if you wish.

If you have any need to refer a member to a counseling service, we certainly pray you will feel invited to seek us out. We are here to serve you, pray with and for you, your family and your neighbors, and carefully serve, respect, and protect everyone who comes to us.

When God Doesn’t Fix It

Have you ever asked God for something – something good, something within God’s will – and yet the answer was…no? …

The Dance

Relationships can be hard. Some more than others. With each person we find ourselves moving to a different dance and doing …

Faith and Wellness

At LifeCare Counseling and Coaching, professional therapy and faith intersect comfortably. Indeed, Christ heals all sorrows. …